I really dun know what you wan from me. The feeling is killing me. You like dun even care what i'm doing now. Idk what i should do now. Should i just fuck off from this world or what. I really dun know what else i can do. You know that you mean everything to me and now you like giving cold shoulder and stuff. God please tell me what i should do. I'm really lost now. Lost in the darkness. Pls help me to see the light.

Today asked my father if i can go malaysia with ivy and her cousin and guess what my father say. He said up to me but best is dun go, but do you this i will not go? Having the chance to go  overseas with your love wan is like heaven la pls. When i hear my father said that i'm like happy until now cannot sleep lo. i know sibei kuazhang but it's the fact. The first girl that i truely love and can go malaysia with her (my first time with girlf go overseas) so gonna save money now if not go there not possible rely on her wan. Even if this mean starving myself for this two week in sch is worth it. Nomatter what this malaysia trip i'm confirm going le. Idc!! <3>

Way to control myself

What i dun like i dun say. Unless she ask me to say then i say. Best to to prevent a quarrel from starting.

Today was the first time she gave in to me after a quarrel. I know her personality is that she will not give in because she dun wan to feel weak in stuff. But today also was my wrong. She did woke up early but because of some problem she was caught up to then will keep drag. I without knowing the true behind (as always) accuse her. :/ bi sorry la. :(( i wrong le. Next time i will give in to you okay? <3 love ya as always. Also soon it's going to he our second monthsary liao. Planning to buy a cake and wait for her end class on that day. Hehe!! Shh~

Mistake

Today i done another mistake of my life again. :(( everytime is the same. I quarrel with her about something that i did not know the full story. Everytime when she msg other guy i will think that other guy is flirting with her and she does not care if i'm jealous anot, but the fact is she had told those ppl that she attached and stuff. Which i did not get my fact right. She alr fan about her father because recently we got caught smoking and sch sended a parent letters to our house and right after she finish hearing her father nag i start a quarrel with her. :(( i'm so guilty now man. Everytime do thing without thinking and being impulsive. Sorry bi. :(( i'm wrong. Everytime after quarrel you will forgive me and dun put it to your heart. i will always love you no matter what. <3

Seriously your phone throw away sua. Everytime either bo reply jiu is late reply by half an hour or one hour. Chaocheebye. Fucking dulan i will not be so stupid to auto msg me. Dun wan msg come dun msg la. Go msg your 'friend' lo. -.- seriously since everytime msg got nothing to say then with him got thing to say lo. You WIN okay! Fucking dulan now! Chaocheebye.

Fucked up attitude of mine

Why is my attitude so fucked up? :/ everytime make her bo mood because of my attitude. Actually is nothing i must make a fuss out of it and make her dulan. Seriously kr you should just fucking bang the wall die and not make her suffer. You think you what? Cine chao big fuck ah? Can anyhow give your girlf attitude?! Fuck you kr. Seriously if i still continue like this sooner or later if she leave you, it's too late to cry. You should just fucking change your attitude and not make her sad but make her feel bliss. IVYNGYQ! I'm sorry! I know i said it alot of time but this will going to be the last. Cause if the next time i made you angry or dulan i will just bang the wall die and not make you suffer anymore. So forgive me and give me a last chance okay? <3